«Loving You Is A Losing Game» by Bianca Alina
«Loving You Is A Losing Game» by Bianca Alina
I feel trapped. My body feels like a cage from which I cannot break free. I’ve confined all my emotions to the deepest shadows of my soul, choosing to keep them hidden from everyone. Why are you so eager to learn the name of the fire that courses through my veins? Revealing it would only mean exchanging one cage for another. Sometimes, the truth doesn’t set you free; it would only lead to pain for both of us. You wouldn’t grasp it. You never have. Every beautiful thing reminds me of you. I whisper your name like a prayer each night before I go to sleep, wishing to feel you in my dreams. Your feelings do not mirror mine; your heart belongs to another. I’ve read your poems, and they are so infused with her essence that I can hear her breathing between the lines. I must let go. Love is not something that has ever been destined for me, and I was utterly naive to believe that you could love me. But perhaps that’s for the better. Love, although undeniably beautiful, often binds us. I don’t want to be bound to someone who hesitates to cross the threshold of my heart, only choosing me after all their other attempts at love have failed. I long to be with someone who will choose me not only when it suits them but every single day, regardless of the challenges they face. When I love, I burn fiercely and loudly. The fire within me doesn’t ask for permission; it consumes everything it touches. The emotional distance you created when you began to crave that intensity revealed everything I needed to know. I taught you how to open your heart; you showed me why I should lock mine away. You are not the one I’ve been waiting for. If I can’t be the main character in your love story, I won’t settle for being a footnote.
Author’s Bio
Bianca is an enthusiastic reader, and very passionate about poetry. Her soul always seeks poetry, just as the sunflower seeks the sun.She wrote her first poem when she was 11, but she wrote with her heart long before she put her thoughts on paper. Her writings can be found on MasticadoresRumanía; Gobblers & Masticadores, or on her personal blog https://fatacusufletdecerneala.wordpress.co
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