In one of my older toots, I was surprised to see that I said genderflux is more prominent than genderfluid for me. Now I think it's completely the opposite. Yes, they are intertwined. However, even when the main axis does include the level of intensity in it, the more prominent change involves a change of the gender feeling itself.

#NonBinary #GenderQueer #GenderFluid #GenderFlux

Scrolling through my (semi) recent toots. It's interesting to see ways in which I've tried to capture my gender. Even some recent ones seem off. Yet, I don't think my gender has changed. I've merely learned more about it. It's a complex beast and the fact it's always on the move makes it hard to catch.

I recently said masculine and feminine are just energy and not core genders for me. As of this week, I've settled with demiboy being part of a continuum. In other words it's part of the core.

The nature of my femininity, on the other hand, has been difficult for me to conceptualize. It being energy and more fleeting is fitting. While I've had many moments when demiboy has clearly been the gender of the moment, femininity has been just a seasoning. Over the last three years, I've only had very quick sparks of what I've called glitch girl. That's a rare moment of the energy "materializing" only to dissolve the next moment.

Last year, I went over a phase where I really struggled with whatever my femininity was. Even thought I'm female-aligned. Tried on the glitch girl label as a more consistent label. Yet, it never felt right. It felt forced.

#NonBinary #GenderQueer #GenderFluid

As part of my quest to define my gender, I've tried to pinpoint the default gender. Yet, I've repeatedly said that it's in constant motion. So, in a sense genderfluid is the default. However, I've always thought genderfluid isn't my gender per se but more of its quality. An adjective.

With the latest exploration, I'm now of understanding that the agender-neutrois-demiboy continuum is my default "gender." At any given moment, the chances are that I'm somewhere along that axis. It's an axis of passive gender experience, if you will.

#NonBinary #GenderQueer #GenderFluid

I started wondering how my fluid gender felt like before I understood I'm non-binary. Over the last three years, I've drawn several diagrams of how I envision my gender and its fluidity but these latest thoughts made me refine it a bit.

My current guess is that before my egg cracked, my gender moved mostly along the continuum agender-neutrois-demiboy. The other branch that deviates from above neutrois, maverique, was there but didn't find proper ways of presenting itself.

Ha, here I am, once again trying to settle with a nice box that is my gender. And no, I'm not done with the labels either. But as my therapist said, there's a difference between it being fun exploration and obsessive, anxious search. This is again on the fun side with no anxiety in sight.

#NonBinary #GenderFluid

Yesterday's therapy musings made me realize that there are parts of my gender that I haven't really accepted. The fluidity itself, but also two endpoints of a continuum. I mean my gender is more complex than a single continuum but this is an integral part of it. For one end, I've struggled with agender as the loss of gender feeling altogether is scary.

But maybe the most interesting is that I'm not comfortable with the other end, which is demiboy. There have been times when my gender feeling approximates masculine and demiboy is the best label for that. Not quite a man but near. I guess it's as if accepting I'm sometimes close to my AGAB means I'm not queer enough.

#NonBinary #GenderFluid #DemiBoy #agender

If you would like to join, please let me know your desired animal and two colors. I will attempt to repaint the comic then. :)

Based on recent info, I would like to clarify my pov:

I mean FLINTA literally.
The FLINTA rhino, as a symbol, excludes no one who is read as "male" in ANY way! People who may not be perceived as female are represented in FOUR letters of FLINTA.

If you say you're FLINTA, you're FLINTA!

#comic #cartoon #Flinta #LGBTQ #trans #genderfluid #nonbinary #agender #webcomic

At a key point, my therapist asked me "have you accepted your fluidity?" The more I think about it, the more this question has weight. Sure, I think it's fun, if not amazing at times. However, it sometimes causes anxiety. I have a need for control. For resolutions. Fluid gender offers neither. So, I guess the answer is "no, not really."

#NonBinary #GenderFluid #therapy

now that stompy boots got such a femme connotation, on my more masc leaning days I prefer to wear barefoot shoes

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