The night is dark, and I am full of terrors. But I am not discouraged! Not after the ways that this community has come through for me in my time of greatest need.
I wish that I could do more than refresh that licensing page. I wish that I could do more than sit here and hope that someone donates to my GoFundMe. But, I am stuck. I had to do laundry today, but I ran out of money. Because my housemate needed help, and they've done a lot for me, I gave them what little I had so that they could dry their clothes.
Now I have not done laundry yet. Fortunately, a job interview isn't immediately ahead of me. I'm still waiting for that license—is it less than 3-to-6 business days already? And before the job interview can happen, I have to be sure I'm not summarily disqualified from working because of the fact that I took care of my mental health as best as I had to.
Groceries, too, were unfortunately quite expensive.
I wish that I could have a source of income. Substack is kind of one? But it's not a fast process, that, and without a license, I literally have no other career but author.
So I'm stuck. And I need help. Please help me just a little bit longer? I'm very close to the finish line, but I can't make it all the way without help. Not in this world, I'm afraid.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/ellis-emergency-fund
The mantra remains stuck in my head. Tomorrow, I'll be telling myself, "2-to-5 business days." Then I'll have to pause for two days, then keep counting after Monday. The hope is that light I see at the end of that tunnel. And that'll keep me pushing forward no matter what.
Plus, I've got essays to write, and good ideas to start working on tomorrow.
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