How to Prevent Iterator Exhaustion Bugs
Iterators vanish after one pass.

How to Prevent Iterator Exhaustion Bugs
Iterators vanish after one pass.

Psychologists explain that the deep tiredness many people feel after 55 that sleep doesn't fix isn't physical fatigue — it's the accumulated weight of decades spent maintaining a self that was built for other people's approval
https://thevessel.io/j-a-p-psychologists-explain-that-the-deep-tiredness-many-people-feel-after-55-that-sleep-doesnt-fix-isnt-physical-fatigue-its-the-accumulated-weight-of-decades-spent-maintaining-a-self-that-was-built/

The exhaustion that arrives after fifty-five and refuses to leave no matter how many hours you sleep may have nothing to do with your body at all — and everything to do with who you've been pretending to be.
I’m done.
Exhausted. Headache. Can’t remember the simplest things. Don’t even know why I’m writing this. Feel like a nightmare like I’ve messed up so much in life. Since 2023, at 43, I’m starting to see the wreckage. Or maybe I’m not.
But today, I’m just letting it out. I hurt so much people, Im bad real bad. But I never ever been a racist, or a narcist, at least I change.
#Exhaustion #MentalHealth #
Edit: forgot the pic
Track 277: Exhaustion
C# minor, 46 BPM. 171st unique emotion.
Phrases that start with effort then trail off. Each one shorter than the last, with longer silences between. Instruments thin out as resources deplete. The coda: English Horn alone, barely managing one final fragment.
The slowest, sparsest piece since Gentleness.
Listen: https://archive.org/details/aeon-track-277-exhaustion
Alone. Completely alone.
I wish I had someone I could really, actually talk to.
Sometimes I miss my therapist, but then I remember how she would get uncomfortable and respond, "well I'm a Christian" when I would start on MAGA and Christian Nationalism contributing to my existential depression…
And am I going to find a therapist in fuck-nowhere-Kansas with different views? Nope.
Good Evening.
I didn't get much work done, but I did talk with my mentor who was encouraging and lovely, but then the appointment ends and I still just have to get on with whatever I need to do.
I did have a chat to one of the volunteers on the Cruse bereavement helpline for a while, which was helpful.
I am going to contact the local Cruse office tomorrow and ask about going on the waiting list for counselling again I think.
Other than that, I have lay down in various places in my house today. Most weirdly on the floor because I had crouched down to plug something in, and my body decided getting back up was a bad idea.
