Lost the painting war today. Gravely injured ego along with picking up the fierce self hatred that festers in the trenches of a bloody battle. aka my stupid hands and brain not working together and I can't stop fiddling with paint. Mer. I'm cranky. #watercolours #painting #eternalstruggle

#Autism #EternalStruggle ...Routine wins out most of the time but I do like to try out new things, too. New menu item pops up at a favorite eatery and I'm eager to try it but also fearful because what if it sucks and why don't I just stick with what I know I like.... #DecisionParalysis

“This is a gaming PC. I built it for gaming. I will NOT install a selection of dev tools on it, no matter how much faster it is than my work machine. I will absolutely not clone a project to see how fast it builds.” #EternalStruggle #SoftwareDeveloperLife