After COVID hit, I dropped out of most of the RPGs I was in. Virtual being a pain was a convenient excuse, but really it was dysphoria. I’d been out to myself over three years, and the struggle to figure out who I was made it impossible to pretend to be someone else. Didn’t help that I was still almost completely closeted.
Fast forward to today, and I’m not only back in a few games (time permitting), but have started running a Fallout one based on XP to Level 3’s rules.
The latest session was yesterday, and while GMing always takes it out of me, I’m having fun slipping into these characters and trying to think like them. And I don’t have the anxiety around “pretending to be someone else”.
It is so good to be oneself and surrounded by people who love you for you.
#TransJoy
#TTRPG
#Dysphoria