Emerson and Ashley went to Honeybee Sage yesterday and Ashley read two poems.

They will roll out elsewhere on social media in early June, but I am going to share them here now.

He kicked absolute ass, and tbh I think he’s a natural performer. I think he did better than me.

-Allēna

JEEEEZ, fronting after this long is weird…

This is Renn, I haven’t been out in about two years. I don’t even know if I have a category on this blog for my posts yet, it’s been so long since I last fronted. Additionally, I came to front because Lēna was feeling out of it in the shower, so I took over so she could rest. I am not entirely sure how long she’ll be out, but I’m here for the time being at the wheel, so to speak, to give her a rest and get ahead on the system’s projects so that she can take a breather. She seems to be okay and safe and in relatively good spirits, just mentally tired.

The same could be said for the body, in all honesty. This H1 + H2 experiment that she’s started is frankly a stroke of genius and I’m glad that we’re in this good of shape – it’s about 3:20 AM as I am writing this and I was able to get our social media posts scheduled up to a week in advance, June 4th, to be precise. I don’t consciously feel super tired yet, but seeing as it’s late and I did have a midnight coffee, it’s better to be safe than sorry, especially if I switched in because Lēna was feeling out of it. I should probably consider going to sleep soon ish rather than making even more videos until the ass crack of dawn.

So it’s bedtime for me, or at least I’m going to attempt to sleep. Emerson is sleeping beside me, and honestly it’s wonderful to see him again. I’ve missed him terribly. The headspace is nice and very peaceful, but getting some time in the outside world is good and I have greatly needed it, I think.

This is all for now. If I am in front tomorrow, I will say hi then. If I am not, let this be my goodbye until I see y’all next time.

Much love,

Renn

yeah thinking about it, i think for the most part i view my system(s) general impact on me as more nuanced than just being negative or positive-

it kind of .. just *is* .. i guess? ... there are definitely more explicitly negative stuff than explicitly positive though; it's just that .. most of it is just .. (eh?)

#DissociativeIdentityDisorder

'ppl with DID are usually super ashamed of their symptoms though!' bruh have you ever seen me having DID in public??

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anyway, i fucking hate having DID sometimes, yesterday was one of those times,

#dissociativeidentitydisorder

DID memory issues are too hard to express or explain in one way tbh, its not actually* just as simple as the usual "bank switching", thing, its .. bleh .. ;

#dissociativeidentitydisorder

you ever get that thing when you start venting about something and by the end of it you've found yourself saying things about yourselves that you didn't even know about yourself, and answering things you've been wondering about forever? Yeah me too;

#dissociativeidentitydisorder

day 1: "where the hell is my system"

day 2: "why the fuck is it night now wtf happened"

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You're lovers, but you share the same system with no inner world.

🏷 #pmknptchart #pmknptchdoodle #did #didawareness #dissociativeidentitydisorder #MastoArt