Whew, today has already been a day. I woke up to the news that one of my step-paternal aunts died -- and good for her. She and her children made my life hell constantly reminding me that I 'wasn't family', which my siblings would follow suite with, and yeah. One of the many charming flavours of trauma I dealt with. At least the impact of the feels probably gives me a precursor to what I'm going to feel like when Voldemom finally kicks it.

We also found out that we can finally get fibre to the premises -- yay! We're all hard internet users in this house, so having a bit more bandwidth could only be good.

Right. Back to games-and-beads. *nodnods*

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Time has gotten away from me today, which... good, probably. Means I'm distracted and not focused on my ambient pain. I was thinking about it too much this morning, because like... a part of me worries that people think I'm mocking their pain situation because of what I 'shrug off'. Having said that, I spend like, 99.5% of my waking hours in a chair with a good back, so... that obviously mitigates a lot of it. ><

((so of course, a headache comes crunching in. I don't think I can ignore it, so all hail Vaporub and paracetamol))

So yeah, just like, games and making bracelets. I'm sure that I will be disappointed next weekend and not manage to sell any, because fayres and I seem to not agree on selling things. But I'm also planning at selling them at a ridiculously undercutting the crap out of myself price, so... maybe I'll at least get my table fee of £10 back? And in the interim, I *am* enjoying making them, so.

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Today's level of existence is 'painfully exhausted'. Like, again, edge of a fibro flare, but a further step into it. Baby flare? Could be. But at least I've done the things I need to do, so that's something.

I'm incredibly amused by my youngest right now. While they are in the SEND (special educational needs and disabilities) program due to their stutter, the head of SEND at their school was surprised to find out that their autism hadn't been diagnosed. Like, child is clearly autistic, water is wet. *laughs* They've sent a referral so she can get properly diagnosed, but in the meantime, she straight-up invited herself into the autism centre in the school -- and today, we got an email inviting her to go on an out of school trip with them later this year. She herself has said that they are happy to have her because she's befriended several children in that part of the school, but it just gets me in the heart that she gets included with her people even without the official label.

What else... ordered another loom last night -- third time lucky? I ordered it from the website of a craft shop in Buxton, so probably hopefully will be good. Watch this space or something, ha ha.

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I have had to be careful today. The weak/exhaustion feels borderline fibro flare, and I would prefer to not go there. Having said that, I still had to go to the Post Office to return something else (sigh!), but like. I would like to do dishes? Spouse is on the same page, but he's also currently grumbling that he wants to go to bed now.

What else... oh stars, so, I chaos goblinned a bit last night. I ended up running over and slapping a FREE CANDY on the back window of the sketchy sex van... which didn't get noticed until this morning. Spouse was wheeze-laughing because it was still there when the van pulled up. It currently is living on my neighbour's bathroom door (as pictured). I was a tiny bit worried I'd gone too far, but apparently it was received in the good humour it was left in. Whew.

Right, back to lumping and being careful.

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Today my body is like, hiii, we're exhausted to the point of weakness. Which, rude. I would like to tryyyy to do a few chores, but I also know that I've been doing too much lately. But like... so close to being like, vaguely tidy. Like, almost to the point where it would be *awesome* to get a deep cleaner in. We're a bit skint right now, but definitely something to consider in the near future.

For now, need to get more caffeine and settle in for funtimes. Weekly chat, that is. It's an hour earlier this week because our clocks haven't gone forward. They don't until the 29th here, so. Quite a lengthy gap between the changes.

Oh, and second loom acquired. Same style as my current one, but bigger. So we'll see how that goes when I get around to it. :D

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It's been... a day? Existing more or less. Got four bracelets now in various stages of construction, and a second loom inbound. My existing one is a bit short for what I'm doing, so having a longer one will be nice. Doesn't mean I'm going to stop doing bracelets on the short one either probably... we'll see.

For now, doing my best to not do *too* much -- but like, still do some stuff. Balancing act, innit.

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Again with the entirely too much, even if it's less too much than yesterday. It's nice to know the house is hitting a proper turnaround, maybe we can make it stick point though.

I finished the first seed bead bracelet this morning. It came out so good! I ended up clipping the bitey bits off of the ribbon end so it wouldn't risk cutting the threads, and yeah. I think it worked out nicely. There's another currently sitting on the rack waiting for the glue to dry a bit more before I move it, so. Excitement or sommat.

That's about it. It's Mother's Day here in the UK (or Mothering Sunday, to give its proper name). Which doesn't mean much besides the kiddos giving me a card, ha ha. Which is fine, really. My only real joy in it is that it's a completely different date from the US one.

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I am doing Entirely Too Much™® today. I really wanted to build on what we did yesterday, and indeed, spouse and I tackled one of the things he needed to do! Which is awesome! His living environs are again improved -- though this time this was the bedroom rather than downstairs. I ended up getting it in mind that I wanted to scrub the fur out of the carpet, so did a section... and yeah, exhausting. Will I do more of it today? I honestly don't know. I'm trying to direct my fragments of energy to trying to push through some of the house chores ahead of that, so.

Currently waiting for my replacement glue to arrive. I look forward to getting my current project off the loom, and starting another one. I wanted to crank out a couple thin bracelets to add to my offerings when I'm at a village fayre later this month. I'm thinking I should get another bead loom, but I'm struggling to find one that is a good length without being 500 miles wide. Anyone have a suggestion?

*goes to lump for a bit*

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Decluttering went fairly well. Admittedly, there's still stuff that needs processing, but the big work was done. Spouse now has a fairly tidy half of the lounge, and I put my efforts into other tasks. The downstairs bathroom looks much better, and I've removed a thick layer of candy wrappers from under the childrens' desks.

There is going to be furniture moved around in there at some point now. We'd always planned to remove one segment of desk so youngest had more room//didn't block the walkway so badly. Eldest has now requested to move their desktop upstairs. And while we had committed to a fairly firm 'no tech upstairs' rule, we're stepping back because hey, kid should be able to use their computer, and they also need a big bubble of alone space to deal with life right now. So yeah, we can probably make an exception. Plus, it also means I might gain some bookshelf space, so, win? xD

Right. Caffeine. Lump. Look for my E6000 glue again. I'm sure I have a tube somewhere, and I have a finished bracelet that I need to finish the selvages on. At worst, I've got another tube coming in tomorrow.

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