I was in a space striking me as a YMCA’s community room in a converted former Unitarian Universalist church, which here had been appropriated to host what was heralded as a post-societal-collapse anarchist meetup. I entered it feeling questionable. I did feel somewhat better immediately recognizing the man I’ve been saying hello to on my morning walks this past week as I passed him painting over the facade of the long-closed neighborhood sports bar in realtime. He’d grown his hair to waist-length dreads and was dressed basic-motorcycle-jacket/band-tee punk. He asked me how I thought I could best help. I told him writing/art, and he directed me to a room off to the side. In the room was a large printer akin the one at the photographic pro-lab I worked at as a recent college graduate twenty-seven years ago. On an old-school Mac I pulled up a collage to print I suddenly remembered I’d pieced together for this very event. It was a cut and paste montage of other recent dreams I’ve had plus photographs of my grandparents from the 1920s. The printer only printed about a quarter of it before it ran out of ink. As I brought it to the person ‘facilitating’ [i.e. purity-test/gatekeeping] the group, they pfft’d, theatrically inhaled through their nose while wobbling their head, and asked what scent I was wearing. I told them it was sandalwood, adding immediately that manufactured deodorants chafe my armpits. He smugly shook his head, glanced at my piece, tossed it back to me and told me to try again. I screeched out of my chair so hard it fell over. I wandered back to the printer, but thinking, “Fuck this,” left to wander the wasteland of felled trees into a sunset muted yellow-green.
#Dreams