This is the part that's extremely confusing about community building as someone who still masks for COVID: I did stop wearing a mask when the mask mandates stopped here in spain, for three years. Eventually, I started wearing them again when I tapped back into the conversation of what we're doing for the purpose of collective liberation.
However, I have been the only one in my vicinity. My family and everyone I talk to think I'm doing too much. They don't feel protected or like I'm doing something for THEM, which is the biggest chunk of why I mask. If it were simply for me, I would not be motivated enough to mask. What motivates me is the greater good. But if my immediate community doesn't appreciate it and it causes a discrepancy in how we can socialize, I end up being alone in my apartment feeling rejected, misunderstood, and resentful.
So do I spend the rest of my life doing that, where I feel hurt and rejected by the community I'm trying to protect? And that's effective community building? I'm not saying i don't want to wear a mask, i'm saying it's cognitive dissonance to wear it, and cognitive dissonance to not wear it, and i need someone to help me make sense of it because i'm sure i'm failing at seeing something.
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