There was once two dolls that played gleefully in a field of endless spring. One, with a porcelain face cracked from countless falls, and the other, with jade eyes that sparkled and hair the color of warm copper. They were inseparable, bound by a shared history of whispered secrets and silent tears, for even in the most pleasant places, dangers lurk in the night. Sometimes, pleasant places are themselves deceptive of the threats that are unseen but present all the same.

The porcelain doll, though fragile, had always tried to shield the other from the harshness of the world. It stood guard against the things that went bump when there was no light, offering comfort and protection to its little companion, as the caretakers couldn’t be trusted to take care of their creations.

But one cold day, as the year waned and the season’s chill deepened, a malevolent beast which fed upon the essence of innocence entered their sanctuary, and the porcelain doll, despite its best efforts, could do nothing but watch in horror as the beast inflicted unspeakable pain on its beloved companion, using her for its own twisted ends.

The guilt and helplessness weighed heavily on the porcelain doll. Its purpose was to protect, to keep safe, to watch over, yet It blamed itself for not being strong enough, for not stopping the insidious machinations of that heartless and ever so cruel beast, for failing to protect the one it loved most. The other doll, now scarred and distant, was taken away, while the porcelain doll was abandoned by hope, forsaken and left alone in a dusty and derelict attic, clinging to memories of a simpler time when they frolicked in fields of eternal spring.

Years passed, and the porcelain doll remained in the attic, its cracks growing deeper with each passing day. It longed for the return of its companion, for the chance to make things right. But the world outside had moved on, and the other doll had been forced into a new home, far from the fields and the painful memories that now tainted that most wonderful place.

The doll tried to fill the void with dark arcane spells and rituals, potions and elixirs that it learned to create from the old tomes likewise abandoned in that dark place, hoping to dull the pain and regrets, to forget its worst failure, but the memories remained, etched into its very being, saturating the cracks of its marred form. More and more, the attic became a prison, a place where the doll was trapped by its own guilt and self-blame.

Bad dolls must always punish themselves, especially when no one knows how awful of a thing they are.

Every year, as the days grew shorter and the air grew colder, the porcelain doll would remember the making day of its lost companion. It would celebrate in its own way, lighting a candle in an attempt to stave off the darkest shadows in that horrible prison where it was left alone, whispering silent pleas for forgiveness. But the pain never truly went away, and the doll continued to struggle with the weight of its failings. It truly was a bad doll and wasn’t worth a chance of and for redemption.

Even worse than the solitude was the betrayal. The caretakers, the ones it called family, turned their backs on it, accusing it of the very horrors it had fought so hard to prevent. They shunned it, mistrusted it, and kept it away from the other creations, as if it were tainted by association. The doll, once a guardian, was now an outcast.

And so, the doll found itself utterly alone, condemned to the attic of forgotten things. It watched as the seasons changed through the cracked, dust-covered window that barely afforded a view of the outside world, where once it belonged. The world outside moved on without it, the laughter of the other creations and the love of the caretakers now just a distant memory.

The porcelain doll tried to distract itself, diving deeper into the arcane rituals and potions that it hoped would bring some semblance of peace. It whispered incantations into the cold, empty air, mixing elixirs in the faint hope they would mend its damaged clockwork heart. But no matter how many spells it cast on itself or potions it consumed, the cracks remained, and the void within grew darker.

The attic, now as familiar to it as the pain of its greatest failing, was now a labyrinth of shadows and echoes of what once was. The doll wandered aimlessly among the forgotten relics, its movements slow and deliberate, as if each step was a reminder of its own brokenness. It traced the lines of its own fractures, counting the cracks as a way to measure the passage of time, the depth of its despair.

And yet, it continued to hope, albeit faintly. Hope that one day, it might find redemption, to rekindle its purpose, to find a meaning to all the agony and turmoil within itself.

Eventually, it forced itself out of the attic where it was abandoned and forgotten, venturing back out into the world of which it was no part of anymore. Once, it saw its companion, but only long enough to reignite the cold flames of the doll’s loss and sorrow.

Eventually, it would be trusted bit by bit around the other creations, as the caretakers slowly came to realize that the doll wasn’t tainted as the beast was, however by this time the doll already understood that it might be a part of the world, yet still apart from the world.

And so it wandered, hoping still to find meaning, the key to releasing it from its own self-imposed punishing guilt and agony, hoping that it would one day be reunited with its companion, yet aware of the cold truth of the reality it existed in.

Did the doll ever find what it was looking for? Maybe…but then again maybe not.

A score of decades isn’t always enough to fix the disrepair of such fragile things.

Most likely this one will never truly find what it's looking for. Redemption is for heroes, and this one knows that there are no heroes in this tale. The whispers it sometimes hears from its companion from afar, from a different world altogether, sometimes soothes the pain of slipping gears and damaged clockwork mechanisms, but it's not the same as mending.

Not all stories have a happy ending, and not all stories are finished. For this one, it can only continue chasing the illusion of being whole while knowing it will never be repaired.

The cracks run too deep, the fractures becoming more and more noticeable, even if this one has become very good at masking the damage from all but the most discerning eye. In the end, if there truly is an end, failings are its greatest accomplishments.

Now the caretakers have scattered, the other creations are becoming creators themselves, even the companion, and all this one has to show for anything is a weathered and damaged carapace that looks like what it’s supposed to, a good, full, complete doll, but it knows…it knows the truth.

In this world, completion is a lie, progress is for the hopeful, and hope is a cruel jest played by fate on those who dare to dream of such things as redemption. In the darkest shadows where unreparably damaged things wander, healing is an ever-illusive phantom, a tantalizing illusion that mocks the broken with promises of absolution. But the truth is, every step towards the illusion of becoming whole is marred by the cracks of what was lost, a relentless reminder that some wounds are meant to fester, not heal.

#EmptySpaces #Dollpost #TraumaQueer #ChildrenOfTheVoid #TraumaArt #PainAsArt
#microfic

“I’ll never forget you…”

These were the words that bounced around the dark void within its hollow head, behind those eyes so blue and clear for years.

It clung to the reverberating echoes of those words like a life raft, even long after the voice that spoke them moved on. To what, it didn’t entirely know. All the wretched thing new was that those words had to be true, right?

Promises made are promises kept. That’s what it needed to believe, because anything else was a betrayal to the memory of the voice and those four simple words.

“I’ll never forget you…”

But time is cruel and unforgiving, especially to the sentimental.

And so the doll waited.

Long and empty years became decades that lasted for centuries, yet the doll waited for the voice to remember it, to remember that it existed, still waiting, still yearning to be picked up and held, reminded that the voice still cared.

Promises made are promises kept. It had to remember this, to make existing long enough to hear the voice one more time its purpose.

A doll without purpose is disposable. Purpose is meaning, and to the doll, meaning had to be to exist, to remain, to wait for the voice to come back.

But as time went on, the doll began to feel a stirring within itself in the places where gears moved, where clockwork components gave it its unlife.

“I’ll never forget you…”

Promises made are promises kept.

But it was forgotten, wasn’t it? It had waited, and waited, and waited, but nothing ever came of the waiting.

The promises made were promises not kept.

As the stirring within itself continued, it began to understand the true depths of loneliness that comes with abandonment.

“I’ll never forget you…”

“I’ll never forget…”

The memory of that voice began to take on a new meaning. Once it was a source of comfort, an anchor keeping it tied to this reality, but now the reality was warped, twisted into something bitter and cruel.

“I’ll never…”

“I’ll never come back!”

Suddenly, it knew. It knew and it understood.

Connections are impermanent. One can wait to be remembered only for so long, even a doll. But when a doll realizes that its purpose is meaningless, the doll also comes to understand that itself is likewise meaningless.

It knew what the stirring within itself was. It was those gears and cogs slipping, wavering, winding down, mirroring its will to continue to be in a world where it was so clearly unremembered, unwanted.

It knew it had been forgotten.

“Hello?” The miserable thing called out as it felt the gears ticking away slower and slower.

But there was no reply. It had learned to stay silent, to be still all the years it had been waiting, but now, as it was fading, it had tried one last time to be heard, to be remembered, only for its voice to echo back at itself, much like the reverberating words in that space within its head that now gave it no comfort.

“Did…did that one forget?”

It tried to move, but moving only made the degradation within itself quicken.

Poor doll. Only now does it know better. Only now does it know that promises made aren’t always kept, that its purpose, its meaning had no value, that it was always destined to exist in this place where the memories chipped away at its finish, both within and without, that it was of no value, no concern to the speaker.

“That one did forget this one…doll is…broken. Doll needs…”

What did it need? To be remembered? Even if it was remembered, would it even matter? It had been so long and the hour was far past late. The doll was broken, defective, much like the promises made but never kept.

Its ball joints creaked ominously as it tried once more to move, however the ticking that signaled its unlife was so faint now.

What had it done to end up forgotten, to end up meaningless with no purpose or value? Had it ever done something wrong? Had it been a…bad doll?

The ticking continued to grow more and more faint, until in its last moments, it uttered its last.

“This one…is sorry…”

And as the echoes of its voice reverberated back to it, it heard the voice in its head one last time. It clung to the voice, even knowing it didn’t mean anything now, much like the doll that was now completely faded.

“I’ll…never…forget…you…”

…CRASH…

#Dollpost #EmptySpaces #ChildrenOfTheVoid #TraumaArt #Microfic #Abandonment

Having fun making trauma doll art when I should probably be in bed! Go mania!

Would do this over on @NeverBeing, but I forgot the log in on that acount, so...

#Dollposting #EmptySpaces #ChildrenOfTheVoid

Description:
The image presents a hauntingly beautiful and gothic scene, rich in detail and atmosphere. At the center of the composition is a doll-like figure with an ethereal presence. This figure has long, flowing, reddish-orange hair that cascades down in soft waves. Her face is porcelain-like, with large, striking blue eyes that are accentuated by dark, dramatic makeup, giving her an intense and otherworldly gaze. Her expression is solemn and slightly melancholic, evoking a sense of mystery and intrigue.

She is dressed in a dark, Victorian-style gown, intricately detailed with lace and ribbons, which adds to her antique and timeless appearance. The dress has a high collar and long sleeves, with delicate lace cuffs, enhancing the gothic elegance of her attire.

To the left of the doll-like figure is a skeletal character, shrouded in a dark, hooded cloak. The skeletal figure's face is a bare skull, and its bony hand reaches out towards the doll, creating a sense of interaction or connection between the two figures. This character adds an element of the macabre to the scene, contrasting with the delicate beauty of the doll.

The setting is dimly lit, primarily by the warm glow of numerous candles that cast flickering shadows across the scene. Tall candles are placed on an ornate candelabra in the background, while others are scattered around the foreground, their flames illuminating the figures with a soft, golden light. This candlelight creates a warm yet eerie ambiance, enhancing the gothic mood.

In the background, there are red roses, which add a touch of color and romance to the otherwise dark palette. A decorative mirror or frame is also visible, contributing to the opulent and mysterious setting.

Overall, the image evokes a sense of gothic fantasy, blending beauty with the macabre. It invites the viewer into a world that is both enchanting and unsettling, filled with mystery and emotion. The juxtaposition of the delicate doll and the skeletal figure suggests themes of life and death, beauty and decay, creating a captivating and thought-provoking visual narrative.

This one greets all from the void.

It is a doll trying to find its empty siblings out here in the great wide world of decentralization.

Its bio says it all but for clarification sake, it shall illuminate.

Expect #microfiction #dollposting of a darker nature, this one is a refugee from #dolltwt that lost its way after the great dumpster fire of 2022.

Sadly, it has wandered for some time and only recently started seeing signs of other voidlings out here.

This one hopes to find something of #doll twitter’s community out here as it misses the company of such broken and damaged things. It was once known as “Ifrit the Impermanent,” sometimes also known as “Fragility is Stillness.”

All #Dolls, #moths, #Angels, #Demons, #Drones and all other entities from #EmptySpaces are welcomed to follow and interact.

It has to warn the unstilled though, posts may be disturbing and unhinged by “normal” people standards.

It also uses the hashtag #ChildrenOfTheVoid to denote its posts and it recently started posting under its other account until it created this one.

Please note that the hashtag is not to be confused with the user Children of the Void, who it talked to just to make sure it was cool to use the hashtag to begin with.

#Intro #Introduction

The blood may not flow from this one anymore, but the scars, the loving remains of the relationship between flesh and steal still throbs, aching for the eventual release of life sustaining crimson that will never come again.

It's a thing of glass and gears now. All clockwork motion, unable to bleed for pleasure. Sometimes it regrets this, but other times it finds pleasure in removing its components and crushing them slowly between its porcelain fingers just to watch them shatter into little motes of glitter that drift into nothingness on a breeze it can’t feel anymore.

Still, it misses the pain, misses the feel of the knife slowly inching through flesh, the balancing act of life and death.
Pulling itself apart gear by gear lacks the same satisfying release that an unstable mind with a razor in hand gets from damaging itself just to feel something, anything that resembles life, but it's still better than nothing.

#Dollpost #EmptySpaces #ChildrenOfTheVoid #TraumaArt

Today: A mostly functional member of society.

Tomorrow: An emotionally damaged wreck of a human being trying to convince themselves they're fine.

The day after that: Good doll!

#Dollpost #EmptySpaces #ChildrenOfTheVoid