After a chaotic restless sleepless night of pain the old man drags his breathless lifeless corpse from a sunken bed of jagged shards of thorny rocky glass and steel, unable to yet see as the classical music plays he scrapes himself across the floor to prepare his coffee, as his hands shake and tremble he manages to pour in the water and counts the scoops of grind then fumbling he plugs in the percolator, as the coffee begins to perc he shuffles off to the toilet where his bowels bellow out in a hungerous rage, the mirror reflects the disheveled hair and beard of a man blankly staring into the abyss, to tired to care he stumbles back to his bed where he struggles to pull on his socks pants and shoes, he pours a cup of coffee and gently packs scrapes of tobacco into his pipe and pulls on his coat as he slips out the door, the morning is dark and gray the air is mild but moist, ast the world begins to wake not a soul cares for the horrish plight of a hellish life the old man must endure yet another day;

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Thanks to some recent compassion of others, I have been able to order some #food stuffs, which some will be here tomorrow and some on Monday, but this #disabled man existing in #poverty has a lot he still needs to tend to right now, I still need $2410 to get caught up for this month and I still need to raise a total of $21,190 so I can slightly get through the rest of this year, your compassion and support would be greatly appreciated right now and it is really easy via #cashapp at $woctxphotog or via #paypal at paypal.com/donate?campaign_id=… Thank You For Your Continued #Support and #Compassion Through Your #MutualAid;
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The fluidic correlation between dimension 34 and parallel reality 73, is a clear violation of fundamental particle acceleration, yet at this juncture particles are all solid mass, gas and fluid, while they exceed the speed of light by a factor of 10 to the 100th powers, if we can find the mechanism that allows for this, we in theory could make human intergalactic travel a reality within our dimension and reality;

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It has been a rough kind of day, I had some rent chores to tend to, which exacerbated both my pain and exhaustion, in between taking many breaks and even now I have not been able to get comfortable enough to relax at all, the wonders of doing anything often spins by #bipolar #mania into drive, which in itself is exhausting, a long time ago I realized how I used to have the energy to ride a bicycle hundreds of miles in a week while working 80 hours, and then later how I could manage working 120+ hours a week without crashing, now eventually that all caught up with me, but in the time since I have done my best to keep my body still and my mind as quiet as I could, as any physical activity seems to through me into a mania induced activation, and it has always been hard to keep my mind quiet, but between the two, along with my constant pain sleep often evades me, so doing chores becomes a fine line of balancing extra pain and at what point does my body refuse to shut down and relax, the sad thing is, there is not pre set limit what works one day may not the next and so on, it is a constant battle of will, and far to often I am stuck in a full speed go even though my body can no longer perform, and that causes more pain more exhaustion and really a great deal of aggravation, in anyevent I am having a hard time chilling out and relaxing and my mind is running so fast it is extremely hard to focus on anything at all;

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For if life is but a translation of death, then in what existence is there actual life, for this one is wrought with suffering, destruction and chaos, to be blunt this is the definition of hell, so if we are all in the afterlife confined to hell, for when did we live, when did we experience joy, peace, compassion and order, for as the rose wilts and dies it would appear we have long since decomposed as humanity is simply gone;

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After a sleepless night of pain the old man drags his breathless lifeless corpse out of a sunken bed of jagged thorny rocks, stiff unable to yet see as the classical music plays he scrapes himself off to prepare his coffee, as his hands shake and tremble he pours in the water and counts the scoops of grind fumbling he manages to plug in the percolator, as the coffee begins to perc he shuffles off to the toilet where his bowels bellow out in a hungerous rage, in the mirror a face blankly staring into the abyss reflecting his disheveled hair and beard, to tired to care he stumbles back to his bed where he struggles to pull on his socks pants and shoes, he pours a cup of coffee and gently packs his pipe with scraps of tobacco and pulls on his coat, stumbling out the door the morning is dark and cloudy the air mild, as the world begins to wake not a soul cares for the hellish plight he must endure yet another day;

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I am disabled and Bipolar, on SSDI, I have severe anxiety and bipolar, PTSD, ADD/ADHD. I do not drive. I am poor. I struggle to make ends meet, and I have many unmet needs. I need help to get a home where I can keep until I die. I don’t want to worry about what I am going to eat, I don’t want to go to be hungry anymore, I don’t want to worry about the decline of my mental health, because of lack of care. My health is slowly but steadily declining. I have not had proper care for some time.

If I could raise ~$3 million in a rather short amount of time, I could obtain my own property and home, whether I buy a house and property or vacant property and build my forever home. My realistic ideal budget for property and home along with the necessary things that go with a home, is currently around $500,000 and that is very doable. But lets just say to create my forever home, furnish it stock it with food and all the stuff one needs to live, cost $1.5 million I would still have $1.5 million left in the bank which would give me $37,500 a year for the next 40 years of my life, which is an increase of $25,000 a year over my current $12,000 a year. Which would allow me to cover all my property taxes, utilities, maintenance, food and groceries and basic life costs, and not have to ever worry about what I am going to eat, or where I will sleep and for how long.

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Manic Sounds, is a collection of music that a creative disabled bipolar man composed and produced to have something reflective of my emotions and experiences, Manic Sounds, is more than music, it is a collection of musical soundscapes, and whether you listen from the first track to last or you shuffle them around, they will provide you with hours of audio exploration, perfect for relaxing, meditating, or just to listen to.


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Some Compassion And Support Sure Would Be Nice,
I have so many unseen issues, most don’t realize the true difficulty I endure each day, first I don’t sleep well, for many reasons, from a brain that is constantly in overdrive, to relentless nightmares, to being in constant pain, to not having a decent supportive bed to sleep on, so my days start of painful, tired and overwhelmed before I even get going, Often I go hungry because living in #poverty I simply can not afford #food to eat, I typically only get around 600-800 calories a day when a man my size and age should be getting around 3000 calories a day, as a result despite my appearance I suffer from malnutrition, I have a great deal of difficulty cleaning my tiny cave, from not being able to afford the basics to have cleaning supplies to being physically limited in my ability to do so, I cant hardly bend over, nor can I very easily get up and down off the floor, taking a shower can simply become a serious challenge, and often leaves my exhausted not to mention I cant often afford the basics for personal hygiene, simply washing a dish or standing at the stove at times can be brutal on my back, then there are chores I need to tend to as part of my rent, and those absolutely can be a painful and exhaustive event for me, and those around often don’t even realize and expect more as a result, and if I say I have had enough today, I am questioned, because they assume I did what I did with ease, but they have no idea of the pain and struggle I had to endure to deal with to accomplish the tasks at hand, reading has become trouble some, as world become very blurry and melt together, writing is becoming increasingly difficult, as finding the words is getting harder and harder, being creative used to help but I have been in so much pain, and under so much stress that I often cant even muster up the energy to attempt to be creative, not to mention my camera is failing, my laptop is struggling, and again no money to obtain what I actually need, I have no #healthcare because the laws people pass have really messed that up, and after years fighting to get it resolved I have given up, so I fight through each day to just to suffer the next, I reach out constantly for financial support yet receive nearly nothing compared to what I actually need, this #disable man exists in #poverty, constant pain and my #anxiety exacerbates my #ptsd, my #bipolar cycles, and several other issues, my blood pressure has been all over the place and frankly in a rather obscenely high range for to long, my core body temp has been far lower than the average, while I often feel as though I am on fire, things get darker with my sight each day, and yet to bright, I hear and see so much that is not actually there, so very much wrong and no support nor help to be found, it would really truly help if people could and would help me #fundriase the money I need each day to live, and the money I need to set up a life where I can take care of myself and lessen the effects of poverty and disability on an aging body and mind.

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After a restless sleepless night of pain, the old man drags his breathless lifeless corpse out of a sunken bed of jagged rocky thorny shards of steel and glass, unable to yet see or function as the classical music plays he drags himself off to prepare his coffee, as his hands tremble and shake he pours in the water and counts the scoops of grind, fumbling he manages to plug in the percolator, as the coffee begins to perc he shuffles off to the toilet where his bowels bellow out in a hungerous rage, in the mirror the reflection of a man staring blankly into the abyss with greasy disheveled hair and beard, the old man disrobes and enters the shower, the boiling water offers no comfort as he brushes his teeth as the water pours over his head he struggles to wash his hair and beard, his hands struggle to grasp the soap as he washes his body, exhausted from the ordeal he rinses off shuts of the water and dries himself, exiting the shower the arduous task of brushing out his hair and beard steal what strength he has, stumbling back to his bed he struggles to pull on clean undergarments, socks pants and shoes, he pours a cup of coffee and gently packs scraps of tobacco into his pipe, he pulls on his coat and slips out the door, the morning is gray moist and cool, as the world is awake not a single soul cares for the hellish plight of life the old man must endure yet another day;

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