Planned on doing a run first thing so I don't eat breakfast. Need to shower.
But I only have one sports bra and it's currently in the washing machine.
I want to finish my run by 9:30. The washing machine won't finish until 9:25.
Mum says she will video call at "some point" this morning.
No bra means no support and the twins absolutely cannot handle a run without the most ultimate of support. I can't go out later in case my mum calls.
So now I'm not running, not eating, and have no reason to shower (other than generic hygiene reasons which don't motivate me at all).
It also means I'm missing an exercise day. I'm out all day tomorrow with no chance to do it then so that's another day missed. So now I've learnt that I can simply not do an exercise and it's fine. Which 99 times out of 100 ends up with me never ever doing the thing again.
So, by not having a clean bra, I'm never exercising again, going to work a greasy and sweaty mess, having my day out tomorrow also looking disgusting, and thoroughly miserable about myself and my body, so I'll have to wear massive hoodies to hide my body for the rest of my life because it's too shameful.
Black and white thinking where everything leads to catastrophe? Me? Nope....
(A second bra has now been ordered because getting that is a whole other ND story of failure.)
#exercise #BodyImage #BodyIssues