I just figured out why I've been holding onto this rock so tight.

It's not just a silly little rock. I get to find the right words to use when I speak about my Believer Rock soon.

For now, it's enough to write that I do understand the magic of the rock I was holding in a moment of understanding myself during the Ceremony of Renewal for Solstice, and held close through my unlocking and acknowledgement of my selves. And then held through weeks of reexperiencing all of my past trauma again but this time as joy. I've held it through my Ancestral Quest.

I'll hold it as I walk into my trailer, my newest home.

It was a rock. Its now a Believer Rock. And I look forward to writing my first kid's book about teaching yourself How To Create Ritual.
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My grandkid asked about my rock when we were in video chat a few days ago. 🥰🪨

I'm thinking it's gonna need replacing soon, because I keep dropping it out the door of Kaya's Truck on accident. It's got a few chips in it now.

That's ok, though. In the end, its just a rock I like to play Make Believe with, and I'll be happy to carefully select a new rock to play with when the time comes. And it's still smooth enough to play with, no jagged spots.

When there's a specific thing I'm trying to keep my focus on for the day or a few days, I have been able to use the rock to bring that perspective forward from within myself.

Part of me sees this as a magical ritual, part of me wonders why the psychology of it never worked for me before last month. And the whole of me is believes fully in my own magic - and that this ritual we indulge in is vital for our mind magic to work the most effectively. 🪄
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It's a whole lot of fun to play with this rock. It's a fantastic tool to remind me to check inside myself when stuff isn't feeling right, instead of reacting to stuff before thinking. It reminds me to figure out what I really want in the moment I'm existing in.

Plus, it keeps my hands busy better than any fidget toy ever did. Especially while driving.

It's so bizarre, because this rock and my feelings about it would not have impressed me in the slightest, a few months ago. 🤷‍♂️

I wake up still holding it most mornings, though. I guess Sleepy Luke likes it as much as all the other parts of me do. 🪨

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I'm still playing hide n seek with my Believer Rock.

Every time I've dropped it or haven't seen it in a bit, I wonder where it is. And every time I wonder where the rock is, I remember that everything I need to believe in myself is already inside of me.

The rock is just a fun tool to get myself in the habit of remembering I can always slow myself down.
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I have had a very full few days of family time, including my kids and grandkid. 🥰

I have not had nearly as much alone time for meditation as I was getting, and I'm finding it difficult to just drop into relaxation when I want to, like I'd been doing since discovering that it was possible in recent weeks.

I haven't lost it, but my body needs heat and sunlight on my skin, which is so hard to make happen during Utah winters. I do have a naked hot springs social on New Years Day.

I think I'll know what paths are ahead, by then. I cannot see them clearly, yet. I just feel myself being called away from here. #crossroads #Hecate

I still have this little Believer rock hanging around with me, though my BF borrowed it for a few days. Today, I am indulging an awareness that I do Believe that I will feel the sun bathe my entire body in warmth again, very soon. 🔆
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I haven't been able to find my Believer Rock for a couple of days. I looked a few times, but came up empty handed. I knew I'd find it. And today it turned up in a very unexpected place.

One of these days, I will be able to give my Believer Rock to someone who needs one of their own. I wonder how many Believer Rocks I will hold.

Today I have felt many messages of waiting and patience flow through my day, reminding me that I know them, and I have them. I don't know why they are here, just yet. But I hold peace and joy and patience inside of me. Until waiting is full.
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My believer rock helped me today. I had a very intense evening filled with emotional labor. I was deliberate in engaging, and my lil rock was all I needed.

It feels so silly. A rock wouldn't have helped me in any way a week ago. Silly as in happy and joy, and not complex.

My believer rock is the placeholder for a variable, and it will hold whatever I decide it holds.

Did this autist just learn a new way to play - at 48 and with a silly rock? I do believe I did! 🤯🪨♾️
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