WARNING: INCOMPLETE, POORLY WRITTEN.
September 20, 2024
Burnout and autism... long-term burnout where I could use computer CPU metaphors and computer operating system metaphors. Like the level 2 cache having problems, or a bad memory bank.
Or bad built-up experiences.
Burnout and people without autism. Since a young age, say when I turned age 13, I always had an uneasy feeling about wars and how people could sustain them. I would watch a movie about Germany and World Wars and ask myself: how can they send away their 17 year old child to kill people? Not only one World War, but two in a row! How can they fight in a trench for weeks and not just want to say "this is bad". Shell shock as burnout, etc.
Past age 50, I've come to find these topics of burnout and war, burnout and hate, have been a "special interest" all along and perhaps it is bullying experience and hearing others share in autism support groups and such that has made it more conscious for me. The "fun" people seem to have with domination and bullying, even war against others they hate (even groups I have no association with other than being a person, human being).
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#RoundSparrowToDo //\\ it seems I can't communicate my thoughts into words that say what I wanted to say. Posting this incomplete, which seems to be a burnout line right through my mind.