“Mother’s Day”

Today my dad will call my mom
And thank her for my existence
I do not thank her for it
But I can’t say that aloud
I am not suicidal!
But I am always terrified or unhappy
Maybe not always
How often do you feel hopeless, like you would be better off dead?
Most days, some days, or not at all?
I roll the question around in my brain
Some days.
I don’t want to die.
Actually I’m terrified of death
I want to live so badly
I want to experience everything
Fear and chronic symptoms
That’s what holds me back
Today my dad will call my mom
To thank her for my existence
Today I will take several pills
They keep me here
But they don’t fix me.


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Bedtime soon. We have a family birthday party to go to tomorrow, so I need to recharge my always drained battery. They have 6 dogs at this house, and while I love dogs, these dogs are loud and poorly trained for the most part. Plus..... masking and socializing. Ugh. I am for sure bringing my book. I do love these family members, but some of them can be..... a lot of person. Too much for me for long doses.
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I'm so anxious. All the time. It's exhausting. I feel guilty about I don't even know what. I can't help but be convinced that people I love are tired of and frustrated with me, so I dare not talk to them. It never goes away.
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