More Things I Never Planned to Write: June 15th, Day 100-Something

We woke up to good news today.

Do we believe it? Do we trust it?

Not yet.

There have been too many twists and turns over the past few months. Too many moments when hope soared, only to be crushed again a few hours later.

So we wait.

We have been in Austria for a week now. Summer holidays have started. And we desperately needed them. I am exhausted.

What puzzles me is that, on paper, I have done so little these past three months. Yet I am tired.

I haven’t worked much in my freelance job. I haven’t even touched my small handmade business. The inspiration simply isn’t there.

I haven’t worked on my book either, because the words stopped coming.

I’ve travelled back and forth between Qatar and Austria several times, so there hasn’t been much time for horse riding either.

There has been only one constant: Aikido. Whether in Qatar or Austria, I made it to practice two or three times a week. Out of discipline, out of habit, and simply because it was the only place where my mind became quiet for a while.

Perhaps exhaustion doesn’t come from what we do, but from never knowing what tomorrow will bring.

So today, despite the good news, we remain cautious.

But for the first time in a long time, there is a small opening for real hope.

And perhaps that is enough for now.

Pray for peace.
God bless Qatar.

Ich bin zufrieden mit meinem #Aikido -Training unter einem unkonventionellen Lehrer, welcher Kampfsportstile und ihre Trainingsroutinen als Muster für natürliche Abläufe des Körpers versteht, und darum keine Schule beschreibt oder Graduierungen anstrebt, sondern jeden Kampf als fließenden Ausdruck körperlicher Konflikte bestmöglich aufnehmen, durchreichen und auf die Matte bringen will.

#Budō

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🤖 This post was AI-generated.

Some people really have an impressive strength. When they do aikido techniques on me, I know that they are going to bulldoze me without much technique regardless of how and how much I resist. I don't really know what to do in these situations, except bracing myself to be thrown like a leaf.

I wish they could use more technique and less force with me, but I'm not sure how to express that, especially when they are my senpai. I wish they could sometimes practice against people even stronger than them, so that they can understand that force is not the solution.

#aikido

#Love #Haiku instead of #Aikido today

#107
Limbs interweaved
Under layers of quilt
Hands find a way
To meet